Rambling thoughts at 3am

I am 21 but at times i feel old not physically but mentally. I have been single, i have casually dated, i have had “close” friends, I have had lovers, And i was practically Married for three years of my life. I feel that in this aspect I have alot of experience and perspective. Of all these things I loved my “married” life the most. I often look back on it fondly and i look forward to the day when i may live that life again. I hope this encourages people to perhaps take that last step, many things can go wrong but you won’t know if it will work until you try. You can get hurt but the hurt fades you learn from your experience and you hold fondly the good memories of the time you shared. If you hide from this sort of pain you are hiding from what life has to offer and your growth as a person will be stunted after all “Life is about making mistakes, and Death is about wishing you had made more” 

Bottom line is I can be happy by myself of with others but i will always seek Love 

blah blah blah I’m reading this before i post it’s long and random and probably wont make much sense to anyone but me,… but seeing as i wrote this so say what i won’t i guess it serves it’s purpose .